Depression, guilt, self-loathing--it feels solid, real.
This, however, is an illusion. But you need not take my word for it.
See for yourself.
Get into a meditative posture. Some prefer to sit. If, like me, you can only meditate while laying down, that's ok too.
Inhale. Exhale. Repeat.
Then...listen.
Allow whatever you're feeling free rein. Let it flood you.
Do not resist. Just feel.
After a while, something interesting begins to happen. The melancholy, which had felt so solid, begins to flicker.
At this point, you may feel strange physical sensations. Your arms may tingle. You may experience alternate feelings of coolness and warmth. Your center of consciousness may shift to the top of your head so you barely feel the rest of your body.
That's ok. Let it happen.
Eventually, you begin to sink down, beneath whatever sensation happens to be passing through.
Whatever you find down there is far more real than what you began with. Let it happen.
What do you discover down there? Sadness? Anger? Or just a vast, turbid numbness?
Do this as often as you can. Familiarize yourself with whatever lies underneath your melancholia. THIS is where reality awaits you.
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